One week

One week from today and we will be welcoming our little boy!!!!

I seriously CANNOT believe how fast this pregnancy has flown. It seems like yesterday that I was just 6 weeks pregnant!

Had my 38 week check up on Tuesday. Everything looks great! Tested negative for group b strep this time (tested positive with Victoria), have only gained 27 pounds total (gained 55 with Victoria! EEK!) and my blood pressure is great! The baby's heart rate was 141. He is head down, not that it matters much, as I am having a c-section.

I am nervous as heck about the surgery for some reason. And I am nervous yet excited about Victoria's reaction to her brother. She asks to kiss him everyday, and we watch the baby story together, so she gets that babies are in mommy's tummy and then they come out. She talks about Adam and what we will do with him once he is here and she brings it up all on her own. It's really sweet. I think she will be in love instantly and everything will be great, but this is Victoria we are talking about, and obviously I won't really know until he is actually here and we bring him home. I do worry greatly about her reaction to me in the hospital bed. She gets really upset when I just go to the doctor and anyone else touches me. She starts crying, asking "Is momma gonna be okay?"...she is such a little worrier when it comes to mommy. She wouldn't let go of me during my ultrasounds. She kept making sure that her finger was at least on me, asking time and again if I was okay. I feel bad. I really hope that she will be okay when Andrew tries to take her and leave me at the hospital. Victoria has never been away from me for more than an hour or two at a time, and never at night. I have put her to bed, and laid beside her until she falls asleep since the day she was born. I have never missed it, not once. And she has never woken up to anyone but me before either. I do hope she will do okay, but this has me worried too. She is really in a daddy phase right now, and her sister will be here too, so I do hope that helps, but I know when she gets tired or upset or hurt, I am the one she wants.

I think that this pregnancy has flown because of all the worries I have. I wanted it to slow down, but that didn't happen. This last week could drag and I will be absolutely okay with that. In fact, I hope it does. I hope time stands still for a bit, but I have a feeling it won't.

I am excited to meet my son, to see what he looks like, to see Andrew's reaction to a son! And I am excited to give Victoria a full sibling who will be here all the time. BUT, at the same time, I am nervous about having 2 small children to care for, to make sure they get the proper amount of attention, and to make sure I am still able to make time for my husband.

Either way, one week to go!